The Difference Between Us

Take some pills and the pain fades.

Smoke away all of your dismay,

But does it keep the pain away?

Hahah, no..

The pain still exists,

Just chillin’ on the sidelines.

Waiting for you to find another escape,

Waiting to fuck with your life some more.

It’s just a game,

there’s love for all.

Have fun trying to find it,

but if you have already, never let them fall.

One of my best childhood friends told me that he’s been ignoring me for the past 2 years because he was tired of acting like “best buds” with me since I moved… ya know what? you just fucking smashed my heart wide open, ya fucking prick. I looked up to him and thought the world of him, I would’ve done anything for him and he fucking tells me he had to pretend to be my best friend for 7 fucking years? Fuck this, seriously, I didn’t deserve that fucking bull shit

I’m a victim of myself. Part of me is disgusted, and the other part is just standing by idly watching life and all those chances to be happy slip by. Now I’m not in grasping distance of what I long for and I wonder if this is how I will always feel. It tears me apart. My patience dwindles down to barely half of what it used to be. My anger is rising during ridiculous situations, and I feel beaten and used. God I wanna get out of here